wala me ibang pinost dito sa blog ko kundi yung mga reklamo ko at inis ko sa kanya. i'm so selfish na di ko rin nakikita yung mga mali ko pagdating sa kanya. tama sya sa sinabi nya kanina pag inis ako sa kanya di ako nag sasabi ng i love you, minsan ko lang masabi yun sa kanya, tapos puro pa ko reklamo. sya never sya nag reklamo. i'm so selfish talaga.

bhe love talaga kita, i'm sorry kung di ko masabi sayo lagi... pero love talaga kita... so sorry kung selfish me. :(

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yesterday was a not so perfect valentines day, almost everything is messed up and did not go according to plan or should i say my expectations. i was uber excited about this day and thought that it will be a great and perfect but it didn't fall that way. a lot of things went wrong and i was a little disappointed because i expect to much to happen on this day based on what he told me on the phone couple of days before valentines day and to the fact that it was supposed to be a double celebration for our 15th monthsary together.

i expected it to be wonderful and romantic with sweet but simple stuffs from the flowers until the dinner date but i was disappointed because some of it only happens and not to mention it did not go well too. i mean every girl is expecting and would love to receive flowers on that day even though she keep saying that she doesn't want it, she really does expects it you know. i was really expecting him to give me one because since we have gotten back together he still haven't given me any flower even during our anniversary nothing. during our anniversary it's fine i understand it because were busy doing our thesis back then so i totally understand it but yesterday i was really sad not to see one. i was really sad because that's the only gift i was expecting to receive that day but sadly i did not. every girl that passes me by or every flower shop that we walked on by i just don't know what to feel either jealous, sad or pissed of just by seeing them. thanks for the free kisses on terreyaki boy i've got a small remembrance for that day.

we were supposed to have our picture taken yesterday but i was so pissed off that i really don't want to do it. next to the cinema, he took the lower part or deluxe part instead of the upper or primiere part. i really don't like the lower part because i have a hard time watching the movie because all i can see was the head of the person in front of me. i would love to hug him since he was scared but i just can't see it so the only thing to do was to hold his hands.

i wanted to cry yesterday so much but then i still have to be thankful for his effort and sweetness that he gave me. all the kisses and hugs inside the van. that's the only moment that i treasure that day. then after that the pizza. he promised me a week before that we would eat pizza during that day but then he just forgot it again. i was trying to hide my disappointment yesterday but i guess i was not that good because he seems to notice it though. i wanted to have a dinner date really but then it did not happen because the mall is closing and i was the only one who was craving for it so i just decided to buy dinner for myself and just eat at home. later that night i told him what i felt and he already knew it. he was apologizing but i guess the problem was on me, i expected too much of him, i expected a lot from what he had told me. so sorry bhe. i knew that material things is not that important but sometimes it is also necessary, i was only asking for flowers, i will be fine with that but it's already in the past now and right at this moment i still hate roses and pizza coz they remind me of that day.

i was really sad yesterday but i was happy too since i had the chance to be with him again. and even though the day is so messed up i really do love you bhe and wanna thank you for it. i will just wait for the day that you are going to perfect our valentines day just like you said and i just hope that you would not forget it and were be able to make it until that day. i love you bhe so much!

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this past few weeks medyo iba ang dating nya, idk if he's just bored o what o worst doesn't even want to talk to me na. i'm not sure but this past few weeks i feel rejected. it's like physical he's there but emotionally wala. as in wala. pagtumatawag walang maikwento, pag nag iim, walang maikwento or me ginagawang iba...

kanina ewan ko parang me iba... di ko alma kung umiiwas o ano? fine, na deads yung lola ng bestfriend nya, all i'm asking is a little time, just a little time, di nya pa nabigay instead niloko nya pa ko... sabi nya restart nya lang yung pc tapos ang tagal bumalik, after 30 minutes bumalik sya invisible mode tapos sabay aalis eh samantalang pumayag sya na maya2 na lang umalis, ano yun di nya nirestart yung pc nya at nag offline lnag sya para maiwasan ako?! tapos sabi nya babalik saya agad... PUTANG INA! ano na ba toh gaguhan na naman?!

oo naiintindihan ko na paminsan minsan lang yun, sige hinahayaan naman kita ah... pero bakit me parang kagaguhang nagyayari?! ayokong mag isip ng masama pero ano yung ginawa nya? sawa na kong awayin sya, nakakapagod...

mahirap bang magbigay ng time? kahit onti lang, buong araw hinahayaan ko sya kung ano man gawin nya, ako sa gabi lang kahit 2 oras lang ok na yun basta may sense naman ang pag uusap namin at hindi ako lng ang nagsasalita.
ayokong isipin na nag iba ka nanaman at bumalik sa dati mong u
gali, please lang wag mng sirain ang tiwala ko ulit... hindi ka pa nga masyadong nakakabawi eh...

sabi ny sa kin nung isang gabi kailanagna ko syang hawakan, ano bang klaseng hawak ang gusto mo ha? sana sinabi mo na lng na bc ka kanina or ayaw mo kong kausapin oo magtatampo ako sayo pero di ako mag iisip, kadudaduda kc ginawa mo eh....

di ko alma kung umiiwas ka o ano eh.... ayoko na kitang awayin.... sana lang matupad lakad natin sa wednesday... kung hindi ewan ko na lng.... kailangan na kitang kausapin... sobrang nasasaktan na ko...

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