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We were once the best of friends,
hanging out everyday,
but then you found new friends,
and the fun times went away,
i know i can't be angry,
because it's my fault too,
but you made me smile,
i loved every minute with you,
hugged me first new years eve,
never once made me cry,
and now that you found other people,
i guess this is goodbye,
I smile when i think of the secrets,
knowing the other would never tell,
i remember you cheering me up when i cried,
or hugging me when i didn't feel well,
you were my bestest friend,
i will hold on to the memories,
till the very end.

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Saturday, April 29, 2006♥
if only @ 11:15 PM

i just watched the movie if only for the nth time and even though i know what will happen in the end, it still makes me cry and get sad... i really love that movie and i consider it one of may favorites, since it main lesson was simple yet so powerful and can be very painful if ever it does happen to anyone. sometimes i can relate to it and pray that it wont happen to me coz i don't know if i can go on with my life if that happens to me...

you see i lost him once and i don't want that to happen anymore. i do love him so much. right now i'm still having troubles giving him what he really deserve, like he once told me that sometimes he doesn't feel me, he doesn't feel that i love him. and that hurts coz sometimes it made me think that i'm not worth it for him but then i think or i feel that maybe it's true because for sometime i'm still afraid to trust and love him completely, as in the way that i loved him before.

i'm still afraid to give myself completely to him, i mean i do love him so much it's just that i'm afraid that when i let my self fall for him the same way i did before, he may hurt me again and this time it will be much painful than before, but then i can see the difference from him his eagerness to change but then he was also like that before, i thought he changed but he didn't i was wrong about him. people may ask why did i ever let him to my life again, the answer is simple, from the moment he whispered inmy ear that made me think that he desrve another chance... and so until this moment i have him...

we had ups and downs as all couples do but then that is what makes our relationship stronger but sometimes i hate it when he over reacted because of his anger... when he's jealous of someone and he gets mad at me i'm happy coz it just show that he loves me but then when he over reacted again i just hate it... maybe i'm afraid because of the reason that he can just let go of me anytime and sometimes all the deed that he had done to get me again are slowly fading... i mean before he always take me home but now it is very often that he do it.

watching that movie made me realized how should i just simply love him with out being so afraid that he's gonna hurt me. he deserve that kind of attention to me and i'm just so stupid of not doing those things... i always try hard on something when it comes to him when all i have to do is just simply love him. i don't wanna lose him again and the movie's right, all i have to do is make him feel that i really love him and if ever that happen to us atleast i made him feel loved...

there's a quote in the movie that says "they say that in a relationship there's always somebody who loves more than the other" i don't care if it is me or him but as for me i love him so much and i'll show that to him no matter what...

sometimes when he take me home he sometimes ask me "what if i die on my way back" i always answer him "i'll cry" but the truth is i just don't know what to answer exactly. idon't know what will happen to me if ever that happens, for sure i'll cry but then i don't know afterwards... i just really don't want to lose him unless he done something bad again, then it's the time when i will let him go, coz this is his last chance to me, and this time i really mean it... :P


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